What am I feeling?

-Lost
-Worthless.
-Depressed and sad.
-Hurt.
-Rejected.
-Angry.
-Violent.
-Confused and twisted like I'm missing something or not understanding something.
-Isolated and alone.

Why am I feeling these things?

-My needs are not being met.
-I'm in a position of little to no power over myself and my life/decisions.
-The person I have entrusted myself to doesn't treat me the way I want and need to be treated.
-The person I want to get certain things from won't give them to me, but gives them to others, making me feel worthless and rejected.
-The constant stress of a dirty house, and dealing with ridiculous problems concerning money and bills.
-Having to care for a dog that I hate and don't want.

Things that could help or solve the issues/ problems and resolve the negative feelings.

-Getting more of what I need, Physical attention, Tender Love and Care, Sex, Affection, Romance, a Partner/ Relationship.
-Being in a better environment. The one I am in now feels hostile, negative, and stressful. I need to be in a place where I feel love, calm, free, no worries.
-Being in a better financial situation. Getting a job.
-Being surrounded by more of what I love and enjoy.


Having looked at everything and sorted it out, really what I need is more freedom to do what I want and need when I want. I need a job, and serious committed loving partner. Now bringing this to him won't be easy because I know he will just put down everything and tell me I'm stupid and what I'm feeling is bullshit and say that I need to pull my head out of my ass. But fuck him. This is what I want and what I am going to work towards, whether he helps me or not.