I'm really starting to have re evaluate everything. Especially myself. Changing is something that generally happens over time, not as a conscious decision. Even if I were to decide it's exactly what I need to do (I'm still not overly convinced) where the hell would I start? How would I know what to change myself into? I've always just been focused on being me, but apparently the me I thought I was and the me everyone else sees are two very different people...It's hard, realizing you're not everything you've worked so hard to try to be and become. Does that make me a bad person? Am I just another broken cast from the mould? Everyone is so caught up with grandeur ideas of self importance and personal universes that they fail to make themselves understand that really they aren't much. Importance is irrelevant to opinion, yours or an other's. People need to pull their heads out of their asses and wake up and realize just how insignificant they are, the people around them are, hell how insignificant the world is in comparison to everything that surrounds us in our existence. So I fight with the idea of, Why change myself in order to make other people happy and like me more, in order to fit in, when in the end everything is pretty much meaningless unless I make it meaningful to myself. and even then it's only meaningful to me. I am not you, you are not me. Why do you judge me? Why do you compare yourself to me and others? What makes you better, what makes you more important? What makes any of what you do okay? What makes me so wrong? such a bad person? Who are you to be angry at me for something that everyone does, making a mistake. That's like punishing a kid for growing an inch, or smacking a dog for peeing in front of the door. Mistakes are inevitable, people grow, change, do things that are unintentional and no one seems to have any sense of understanding, of compassion, or empathy. More often than not you are mad as someone for doing something you've probably done at least once in your life, or thought about doing. It's called learning, growing, and evolving.