If I stand back and analyze the current situation I now find myself immersed in, from the perspective of any but myself, I would say "You are fucking crazy!" But that is generally what other people think of me and my actions lol I don't care about the opinions of others, I can not let the perspectives of other people run my life. When I was younger I let my family rule over me, and the day that changed, is the day I began to change into what I am now, and even still I change, morph, evolve: that will never change. The direction in which I now find myself going is a direction I've always moved towards but never really found, a bearing in the darkness that has no landmarks, so instead I turned my head towards the heavens and found the constellations that now guide me. My Moon and my Stars, the Sun of my Life. He who will take me to a higher level of existence which I have always craved. The journey I now face will be long and filled with much pain of the physical kind, but nothing will make me stray, for so long as his eyes look into mine, everything else around me doesn't matter, time has no hold, what happens to my physical body is of no concern to me, so long as his gaze is upon mine, and our souls remain entwined: for so long as his soul embraces mine everything in the universe is as it should be...well for me anyways.

Do what thou wilt; do what you will; Be You and Do what you feel you need to do, what is right for you and everything else in the world will be right too. Fill your role, do your part in the great play of Life and one day you will see the grander scheme of all things, fallow your path no matter how bloody, dark and broken it is and eventually you will find your light in that deepest of darkness generally in your time of greatest despair. Do not despair: Everything will be alright.