It's been seven months since I moved into His condo to be with Him.
So far there hasn't been any problems or unhappy circumstances between the two of us, the only negative things I've felt were/are when Chelsey tries to get too close to Him and the mostly non existent M/s BDSM aspect of our relationship. To me it's important, it's something that excites me and a part of our life I miss. I know he's been being gentle with me and soft...but it's been too long since he's wrapped his hand around my throat and whispered his threats into my ear before swiftly bending me over and spanking my ass until I cried. I want it so bad it aches, to be on my knees at his feet choking on his cock before he rams it into my cunt and fucks me...because I Love being his dirty little slut. He's not as stern as I'd imagined he would be, not that's it's terribly upsetting to me, I just enjoy the atmosphere it creates, occasionally I enjoy being made to actually feel as if I am His slave; a feeling I wish to experience more of.
I'm not depressed, perhaps a little unsatisfied but overall I'm really quite Happy with Life right now, the direction things are kind of going in seems to be good so far. I'm a little dissatisfied by the lack of ambition I've been experiencing and the continuous drop in the level of my self esteem I've been trying to keep up with. The lack of ambition stems mostly from a lack of direction as always the problem has been. The drop in self esteem has been caused by weight gain and inactivity, I am in the preliminary stages of creating a routine. Biking to work is definitely not enough on it's own, so I'm making gradual dietary changes as well. My hope is that gradually shifting will be easier than a shock to the system.
With Shawn things are going better than I expected. We don't really fight, ever, we discuss things, talk to each other; we are open and it's makes things easier, better....way better. I trust Him, he trusts me and we look after one another, we really care about each other it's not one sided. I completely feel as if this is exactly right where I want to be and I don't ever see that changing....
It's been seven months since I moved into His condo to be with Him, and I still feel sad when he isn't Home. I still think about him everyday, and he still makes me laugh, still holds me close in bed at night and most importantly, we are still very much in Love and I don't ever see that changing.
